We brought Orlaith home 51 days ago... 1 month 20 days... 7 weeks... 1224 hours and it's gone crazy fast, I can't believe I haven't posted in 7 weeks!!
I love being home and I adore having Orlaith home. Don't get me wrong, she definitely has the devil in her some days and is a diva every day of the week but as a baby, Orlaith is doing amazingly! I swear she is getting more and more mobile every day.. constantly shuffling everywhere (crawling soon, I hope!), has her hands and mouth all over everything, trying to sit up by herself, enjoys food (pureed, of course), sleeps through the night... I could literally list a million and one things as to how she has changed, it's unbelievable! Like where has my baby gone?!!
Of course she still has CHI, and it is an on going battle to monitor it at home. We are constantly exhausted, her medical schedule is insane... for the last few weeks, we have experienced hypoglycaemic fits regularly... struggled as parents trying to grasp the disease... and of course it wouldn't be sods law if after 4 days of being home we weren't blessed with teething... but in all seriousness, throw whatever you like at us 'cos we're still over the moon to have our beaut home!
One compliment I get a lot (besides the amount of hair she has haha!) is how happy and smiley she is - she is constantly smiling and chatting away and always in a happy mood; it's strange because you would never believe anything was actually wrong with her sometimes, or has gone through anything like she has. I love waking up and seeing her face in her own cot, not on a ward being prodded every hour or setting off her own monitors... the experience of having a baby home is still new to me but I'm loving it. We are in the 7th week of being home, for most babies this would be at the age of 7 weeks so still a fairly small teeny tiny newborn (I have 100% forgotten what that is like, Orlaith is 14lbs worth of mini human now!), I'm still getting used to so much. I'm not going to lie, I do sometimes feel cheated. Like any other pregnant first time mum; I spent a fortune on clothes and getting everything the baby would need, getting her nursery all ready and making sure it was just right, picking the perfect pram, nesting to a worrying point of scrubbing skirting boards and banisters at 3am and re decorating the whole house so everything was right... I would never in a million years of thought that I would be in hospital for 15 weeks with my child suffering from a condition I had never even heard of! Just the other day I put O in her pram carry cot and she's the exact same length as it... what happened to my baby? Of course like any other 20 week old, she loves to kick and flap so the pram is definitely no good... time to dig out the stroller attachment for sure! Waah!
So we've been up to so much since being home.. for the first few weeks it was constant appointments; I obviously haven't posted in 7 weeks so here is a brief update for you;-
We go back to GOSH for re-admission on the 9th Sept, this is a monitoring and investigating period where the hyperinsulinism and hypoglycaemia are managed by her consultants and this is when and where any changes will take place, it is also a their chance to see how Orlaith is getting on, run tests they need to and all that kinda stuff; Orlaith's GORD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) is under better control now and is throwing up rarely, keeping her feeds down now and is generally more happy at feed times now... feeds are still hit and miss, she has only just grasped the concept of food and getting the feeling of hunger but it's great that she's come this far and learnt to feed in such a short amount of time; Orlaith still has a large atrial septal defect in her heart (possibly from her hickman line), a scan last week showed a hole which is 7mm wide but there is an island which has grown in the middle of it so effectively there are 2 holes along with the atrial septal defect, there isn't any pressure on the chambers so this will just be monitored and operated on a the age of 4/5 if necessary with 2 more heart scans to follow in October; we finally got to attend O's audiology appointments and after what felt like years they finally confirmed that she is not deaf in her right ear (despite what drs etc have said!) and that fluid is build up in the eustachian tube in the middle ear and will go over time; blood counts are currently normal so no more transfusions just yet... and breathe! So much to keep on top of, but overall this little lady is doing beautifully.
Orlaith's still has subcutaneous (injection) Octreotide therapy every 6 hours, as a long term treatment for CHI. Octreotide is not currently licensed in children with CHI, but is used if the child is unresponsive to diazoxide (check my previous posts for more on this)... She's doing really well with them, at first I thought I wouldn't be comfortable giving my baby injections but we aren't phased by it, O takes it like a trooper with a tiny whimper then it's back to smiles or sleep depending on what time of day or night it is! BM management is still every 3rd and 4th hour of the day - this is 24 hours a day like everything else, they have been up and down recently and it cant be extremely hard especially when Orlaith is asymptomatic (does not show symptoms) in a hypoglycaemic episode but we have learnt to manage it and keep on top of the monitoring. I've heard this from a couple of parents, with children also on Octreotide therapy and I have to agree...one thing I can't stand is pity... the amount of times I hear things about Orlaith's medication is beyond irritating, at the end of the day Orlaith's health is paramount to me and any other parent would do whatever is required of them to keep there baby alive and healthy and NO I don't feel bad for doing it.
Of course this takes its toll; I can't remember the last time I slept more than two hours at a time and I'm constantly functioning like a zombie but you just make it work, I think it's more tough as Orlaith has slept through the night since she was 8 weeks old - she doesn't even wake for feeds - which for a normal baby is amazing but cares and meds go on throughout the night so lucky for her, but unlucky for us... she also has to be fed every 3-4 hours without fail otherwise she will slip into a hypo fit, so again it's hard because she is asleep so thank God for dream feeding! We sleep when it can (we get 5 hours spaced throughout the day which are "free", so nothing meds wise needs doing, so we sleep in this time) but I do find that people don't understand and are sometimes not happy if we are unable to make plans etc but it's just how it is, gotta do what you gotta do! I speak to a lot of parents those children, especially newborns with the congenital disease, experience this and find it difficult - give yourselves a break! Learn to be firm and say no...at the end of the day, your child's health is more important than anything in the world so if you want to sleep or do nothing when you can, forget these people and do it! I'm not afraid to admit it but I also became a recluse when we brought Orlaith home, as well as Orlaith being sick I had my own post-birth issues... I just didn't feel comfortable in public - especially having to do meds etc outside of the house; but I'm gradually getting there and lets just say I'm not comfortable in every social occasion anymore but my advice is that the feeling of anxiety will eventually go, we just need to get on with it at present - you've just had a baby/or just found out your child has this, so cut yourselves some slack...it's not something that will digest quickly, time is definitely the winning factor here.
I really hope the other parents are now home, if not have their coming home date..in which case I hope it's SOON. I've been asked a few times if I'm on Insta or Twitter - I'm the most easiest person to find - @LimaraBanks for both - beware I am the biggest mamarazzi ever and will probably bore you to death with pictures of Orlaith. Totally sorry not sorry ;) xxxx
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